April 16th, 2002

hell's kitten

days of the week

ew. its only monday. i seem to deal with that pretty well, though. on monday i'm like "ew. its monday. but theres only one monday per week, and i'll get over it" on tuesday im like "monday's over!!" on wednesday im like: "its wednesday! half the week is over!" on thursday i'm like "its thursday..its already thursday...its feels like a tuesday but tomorrows friday" on friday im just kinda numb until after the last class of the day then im like "ITS FRIDAY!!!! I GET TO SLEEP IN TOMORROW!!! AND THE NEXT DAY!!! :-D"
hell's kitten

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ah! its so weird...Okay. there are a bunch of bands that i like but have no idea what they look like. NFG, pennywise, nofx, alice in chains, goldfinger, mxpx, rancid, soundgarden, sugarcult, etc... It gives them sort of a surrealistic quality to me... i call them "my faceless bands." Unwritten law was on that list until a few months ago when i realized i was going to see them live and should know what they looked like. for the 2 or 3 weeks before the show i was looking up all kinds of pictures of them on the net so i could recognize them.

anyway, i kinda like it when i dont know what they look like. like i said before, it makes it kinda surreal. like i dont think of them as a band, but more like (i know this'll sound stupid, but...) an entity that comes down from nowhere, drops off their music in my computer/cd player and leaves.

bad religion was on that list, too, until about 10 minutes ago when i saw them on conan o'brien. its weird hearing this voice that i've come to know and love, and it's coming out of this.....guy. i dunno, i cant really explain it better than that.
hell's kitten

lyrics survey

Answer this using only song lyrics:

1. Are you male or female?

She
She screams in silence
A sullen riot penetrating through her mind
Waiting for a sign to smash the silence
with the brick of self control

Are you locked up in a world
That's been planned out for you?
Are you feeling like a social tool without use?

Scream at me until my ears bleed
I'm taking heed just for you

She
She's figured out all her doubts
Were someone else's point of view
Waking up this time to smash the silence
with the brick of self control

"She" ~ Green Day

2. Describe yourself:

the words you say ill never listen to
cause if i did id be just like you
but your my enemy and soon your gonna see
you gotta be yourself to be happy
cause your not
your not...

fuct up visions in my head
im a fuct up kid is what they said
but at least i know all the things that i want
and its all the things ive got

cause you're so quick to point the finger
you act like your ---- dont linger
it feels good when you see someone else in a rut
it gives you confidence it makes you happy but
your not
your not...

fuct up visions in my head
im a fuct up kid is what they said
but at least i know all the things that i want
and its all the things ive got

you act as if youve seen my way
but i know that you wont leave today
cause change is what you fear the most
and the end is getting close
and the end is getting close
and the end is getting close...

fuct up visions in my head
im a fuct up kid is what they said
but at least i know all the things that i want
its all the things ive got

"Fuct Up Kid" ~ Mest

3. How do you feel about yourself?

Just because I walk like Obi-wan-kanobi
You people talk but you don’t even know me
And that’s alright cuz I get down wit GC
So I rock on and listen to their CD
Some people laugh they do it just to spite me
Behind my back but they don’t know what I see
But I don’t care what they say i don’t need them anyway
I'll just go about my day but anyway

You go out on Friday night I’ll stay in but that's alright
Cuz I have found a clique to call my own
In crowd out crowd I don’t care
Your crowd my crowd we can share
Cuz I have found a clique to call my own

Let’s go!

So come talk to me
On my computer screen
The best of our lives aren’t easy as they seem
But one day we'll look back and then we'll have to laugh
They used to call us names
Now they want our autograph
To get the girl to make the grade its all a show it’s all a game
And I would lose it if I played its all the same so..
Well I don’t care what they say I don’t need them anyway
I’ll just go about my day
But anyway

You go out on Friday night I’ll stay in but that’s alright
Cuz I have found a clique to call my own
In crowd out crowd I don’t care
Your crowd my crowd we can share
Cuz I have found a clique to call my own

She said she'd call
But I know she wont she wont
She won’t....

You go out on Friday night I’ll stay in but that’s alright
Cuz I have found a clique to call my own
In crowd out crowd I don’t care
Your crowd my crowd we can share
Cuz I have found a clique to call my own

I don’t care what you say
I don’t need you anyway
I’ll just go about my day but anyway...

"The Click" ~ Good Charlotte

4. What would you rather be doing?

we ain't got no place to go
so let's go to the punk rock show
darling take me by the hand
we're gonna see a punk rock band
there's no use in tv shows
radio or rodeos
i wanna get into the crowd
i wanna hear it played real loud
aint' got no money to pay
we'll get in anyway doesn't matter i don't care
it's feel good so we should share
we're going to the punk rock show!

"Punk Rock Show" ~ MxPx

5. Describe where you live:

Hellnation's when they teach us
Profiting from greed
Hellnation's where they give us
Coke, heroin and speed

Hellnation's when they tell us
You gotta go clean up your act
You're the one who dragged me here
And now you drag me back

(chorus)
Problem is, few care
About the people in despair
If you help no one
You're guilty in this Hellnation

Hellnation's when the president
Asks for four more fucking years
Hellnation's when he gets it
By conning poor people and peers

Hellnation - got no choice
What's the point in trying to vote?
When this country makes war
We all die in the same boat
In this Hellnation

(chorus)

It's the only world we've got
Let's protect it while we can
That's all there is and there ain't no more

Hellnation - asking please
For a nuclear freeze
So the unborn kids
Get their chance to live and breathe

Hellnation - asking aid
For the minimum wage
So the kids of tomorrow
Don't wind up slaves to their trade
In this Hellnation
(chorus)

"Hellnation" ~ Dead Kennedys

6. Describe how you love:

i can recall only this one time this type of control the (guy) had on my mind
ive fallen deep. i cant get out. ive never acted this way before

feeling alone, and shes on my mind
try to erase all the pain from that time
shes breaking up and im breakin down
now im headed out of this fucked up town

so love me so i can be myself again now maybe
so things are normal in my head im trying to break away this ball and chain
so hate me so things seem normal in my head
things seem normal in my head

7. Describe your lovelife:

Some people don't know, don't know what is wrong
so they're knee deep,
Knee deep in sorrow

"Knee Deep" ~ cKy

8. How do people feel about you?

You say what's the problem, what's with this angry kid?
You don't like the way I walk, or the way I talk, or the way I swing my hands
You don't like the words I speak or the thoughts I think
And I know you'll never understand
...
Well there's a place inside my mind, yeah a place you'll never find
There's a place inside my mind we'll leave today
You know
Wouldn't it be perfect, if I could sit with you?
And we would change a thing or two, we'd change a thing or two
We would change the way you think, we would change the way I think
We can't change the way they think so we're not changin anything"

"East Coast Anthem" ~ Good Charlotte

9. Share a few words of wisdom:

I won't listen anymore. I'm not here to wash your feet. I'm not here to beg for charms. Here is my stand. Why do you expect me to live my day doing your dirty laundry? I cleanse my skin. This is not my life. It's not life. This IS NOT life. There's a difference between (just) surviving and (actually) "living", (and) this isn't (the definition of) living. I'll show you how to live. (They) scared us into believing this is the only way. We'll run each other over looking for satisfaction. We live our lives in slavery. We're thrown into their work machine. In automatic, nothing's real. I'll run in circles for you. I'll burn myself out for you. I've given my life to you.
What are the benefits of the consequence of conscience that won't let me participate in this? A fun game from them that drains us of our real happiness. What are the benefits of the consequences of conscience? It's hard to smile when years start passing by like this. I'd cash all my checks to understand this burden of compassion

"93,800 Hours" ~ The Assistant
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AH! I loved UL's performance on the ESPN awards!! I loved it...They all sounded really good (better than their performance on Kilborn several weeks ago). I *love* that song. (they bleeped out "roach"...lol) Scott was incredibly hot. His hair...I dunno, it was awesome, but any longer and he needs a haircut.

LJ is being really really really really mean and not letting me see my page or my friends page. Grrrrr.....

I'm watching the tape from ATR last night and benji is so mean to joel!!! damn...
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