October 1st, 2002

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We had a chemistry test today. And I had to make up a chem quiz we took friday. She gave them to me together, though, and they're related, so I could refer to the quiz which would help me on the test. I'm betting I still failed, though.

It's sam v's birthday today. :-D happy birthday to him. I really meant to give him something, but I didnt have time, so I will tomorrow.

Celeste's burning me a 2gether cd and in return i'm burning her toxicity. She's the one that said they should be called "system of a up" because the world is just too pessimistic. Haha...she amuses me.

I have to go get ready to go to mom and dick's house for dinner. They've started this every-tuesday-night-i-have-to-eat-with-them-thing. I now have a reason to hate tuesdays. But I have an orthodontist appointment next tues, so maybe I can get out of that. So anyway, I'll continue with my day when I get back.

And it's jere's birthday tomorrow. I mustn't forget that.
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FUCK YOU DICK!!!

Dick certainly lives up to his name. I HATE him. He needs to die. He thinks he's perfect and that he knows everything. He thinks that because he's lived in 723589 countries that he's the expert in everything, including what I should/do like. I cant even fucking say what happened tonight, but FUCK HIM!!! I was holding in tears the whole time I was over there. The second I got in my truck, I couldn't anymore. Before I'd even pulled out of the driveway, I was sobbing. I've been sobbing ever since, too, and that's been a good half hour or so. HE's such a fucking hypocrite. He gave me this whole big lecture about manners, but all the while kept interrupting us if me or my mom tried to say anything. I seriously can't take this anymore. I need to talk with my mom. Which will be hard, since she's at his house the whole fucking time.
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I live alone, and my mom's never here, but she still doesnt let me do anything. She gives me all these fucking rules, but I'm too fucking brainwashed to break them, even though she'd never find out.
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wow...socorro made the news....

Socorro police are still investigating an accident that killed two young adults Friday when a state police cruiser broadsided the car in which they were riding. A witness told KRQE-TV that the police officer was traveling at a high rate of speed without his flashing lights on just moments before the crash. The driver of the car that was hit was released from the hospital Monday night.

Fucking cop going 70mph in a 35 with no siren or lights killed the captain of tech's rugby team.


Whitney, sandra, lauren and i decided we're going to whit's house thursday night. At 630, we're gonna watch last week's taped season premiere of friends, then watch the next episode on tv. :-) a whole night of friends with friends.

Ha...guess there wasnt as much more to my day than i thought


Oh yeah, and if i havent mentioned this yet, I hate dick.
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rants

I'm becoming more and more tempted to just run away to abq for a week and stay with my brother.

Back in may, my mom and I were talking about my upcoming birthday. My "sweet 16." She said, "let's not make this a big deal." what the fuck?!? I've never had a party over about 5 people in my life, mostly because of lack of friends. I remember one year I invited about 15 people and 2 showed up, but they kinda had to. Now, I finally actually have real friends, and it's even my sweet 16, and what does my mom say? "Let's not make this a big deal."

Dick seriously wants to send me to some southern french town and live with a family on a farm. He said "it's your choice" only about 500 times, but you know that just means exactly the opposite. I refuse. I will not. I'm not going to. No. He said the new house won't have a TV. Fuck that. It's not like I'm glued to the tv, but I really would like to have one. And if there's no internet, I will die. I will not live in a house with no internet. Dick tried to get me to go out to the land they're buying and watch the surveyor survey. "It's really fascinating! You'll enjoy it!" NO! I am NOT you!! Just because you like something, does NOT mean the rest of the world does! "Try the !! You'll like it!!" NO! FUCK YOU! Then he changed my moms mind about letting me go to abq by myself next tues. "You may think you're all grown up, but there's a lot you don't know about the world." FUCK you. I KNOW I'm not an adult, but you won't fucking let me grow up! I can stay out past 7pm! I promise! He has this really horrible sense of humor that is just stupid. He's pulled the "hey, what happened to your ear" thing twice now. It wasnt funny the first time, and it definitely wasnt the second. He tries to make a joke out of everything, fails, and thinks he's the funniest man alive. I know these descriptions aren't making him out to be as horrible as I say, but trust me. His know-it-all attitude is really pissing me off. He acts like he's my dad, but won't let me treat him as my dad. I would've told him off so long ago if that was the case.

He wouldn't let me drink coke out of the can. He made me pour it into a glass. FUCK you. coke in a glass tastes so much different than in a can. I like it in a can. Then he just left the empty can on the table, and even knocked it over, so I really dont see the point in that.

I know my problems seem pretty small compared to some peoples', but Dick is such a, well, a dick. I really cant do the tuesday night dinner thing anymore. I need to cut off as much interaction with him as I possibly can.

I hate this. If there was a way I could go back in time and prevent my mom from meeting him, I would do it in a split-second.

I just found this LJ icon that really fits.

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I'm trying to figure out whether or not I like being around people. On one hand, I do. Being in a big city is my dream. I'd die if I had to live in a small town for too long. I love being around people, in crowded areas etc... On the other hand, I'd go anywher by myself. I'm perfectly happy being a wallflower at parties. I would (and do) go to shows by myself if no one else does, and I actually prefer it. I like being by myself, but I cant stand being alone. There.

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